Thursday, January 31, 2008

Step 1: Powerless

This is not going to be strictly a 12 step based blog on addiction, but occasionally we have to tell it like it is. If I ever knew anything in 41 years on this planet it is that I am powerless over nicotine. If I'm not smoking, I'm thinking about smoking. Cigarettes are on my weekly budget, and I'm always monitoring the supply and deciding how long they will last before I need to buy some more. When I leave to go anywhere I make sure I have enough cigs to last till I get home. I'm probably leaving something out, but I'm sure you get the idea....I'm hooked.
I'm also powerless over what it has done to my budget. I sometimes think of a bill or something else that I could buy if I wasn't wasting money on cigarettes. Summary....I'm powerless.