Can't make this up

On the same day as previous post where I am counting cigarettes to get through the shift, a little while ago a guest calls down and asked if we sold cigarettes!!! Unbelievable!!!

Wishful thinking

It was wishful thinking that I could NOT take an extra pack with me last night. All I've done all night is count out and ration the cigarettes. Right now I have 3 left and it is 5:32am....I've got to get to 7am and that means only smoking 1/2 cigarettes at each "smoking session"...all this talk about cigs and it makes me want one even more.

Oct 14

A little jittery about formally announcing date to anybody...so many failures and stop dates. Oct 14 was my mom's birthday. I was hoping to quit on or before that day. So much harm to my body and all the money spent on silly cigarettes!